have you ever felt the exhaustion? it's not just physical; it's mental, emotional, draining in all the ways you could think of. it runs in your blood and seeps into your bones and you sit there wondering when it'll all be over.
have you ever felt the heartache? it numbs you, chokes you, and makes you feel like your heart is a little shriveled up raisin because you can't imagining it opening up to anyone else ever again. it hurts in the worst ways; a hollow ache that never subsides.
have you ever seen me cry? it's not the kind of quiet tears you see in movies. it's the heart-wrenching sobs; screams of pain, loss and apprehension. it isn't beautiful, there's nothing poetic about it. it's raw, malignant grief.
have you ever known me? or were you just a figment of my imagination, too many lines between what i know and and what i used to love.