The taste of coffee is bitter
I don’t know how to put myself back together
It’s getting harder and harder to breathe
I’m falling deeper and deeper underneath

I keep on playing back all the memories I had of you
Slowly figuring out that everything you showed me wasn’t true
Searching for holes and clues that would lead me back to you
I’m drowning, suffocating, all I could think of are my issues

I want to cry but no tears are coming out
I'm trying to be okay when you turned all the lights out
I want to ask you a lot of questions
I strongly hope that I would know all your real intentions

Loving you, I thought, was everything
I started out and ended up with nothing
Giving my heart swiftly was not initially intended
I immediately fell in love with the idea of being wanted

I went against all my principles
Followed my heart and made my brain, as its disciple
I let go of myself, put my guard down
And now, I’ve already flown so high and I can’t back down

I’m sorry for all the bitterness
All I could think of is this sadness
When all I want is happiness
But all I can do is support and cultivate this madness