My vision darkens, I rely on my other senses to carve painful images into my mind like nails on a blackboard. I have been bitten and poisoned. Apparently, when bitten by a venomous creature time is of the essence . This didn't matter to me because time stopped and made an exception to watch me go through hell.
Voices of familiar faces whisper into my lingering ear. " **** out the poison ya stupid ***** !" " Do it you sad **** ! don't let him do this,Christ what the **** is wrong with you? "
I froze....
I remember thinking this vicious venom swallowing me down into the cracks of the floorboards was all that depicted us and how happy i was with you. How that terrified me. I just wanted to stop, just stop now. I longed to give in to you and just let me my pale blue eyes roll back into the forever of darkness in a broken mind.
When I realized what I was thinking , I couldn't let you do this . I felt like I left to ******* **** stoked bed and I was only there to be laughed at. I attacked my open wounds with my soft lips, The forgotten taste of you tainted my flesh. I ****** and spat your sedative venom out for full long cold year. My jaws were in so pain. Finally, I emerged from the cracks of the floorboards but it wasn't a full rehabilitation . You remain in my lips and within my colorful veins. A taste I will never forget. Your venom is my only addiction.