The first bed was small We so golden in our unity Bodies pressed together Seam of heat that reached The edges of our length Heads on one pillow Breathing into one another’s ears As we created muscle memories
In the futon year we gave up sleep to other desires Drank too much Laughed naked in every room Bought more pillows to soften the slats Tossed and turned, navigating the lumps and wrinkles Restless in our nights of stumbling *** We moaned too loud Ate sandwiches in bed And slept so little
The king-size mattress we were given When someone else was tired From sleeping in the same-old-same ruts We let these other lives roll us outward Bought more pillows Slept in the spaces of others’ love (or lack thereof) And reached longingly across the expanse My hand on your shoulder Your toes on my knee
After the wedding we climbed onto the bare display beds Worried that our spooning would shock the other shoppers Impatient, you reminded me: “This is how we’ll really sleep. Don’t you want to know it will work?” And then I laughed Thinking of the things we couldn’t try in the store How the weight of you and me Would carve nests to suit our needs And we bought more pillows because we could
Tonight I came to bed late and tense Fidgety and flailing to interrupt your calm In the dark you pulled against my hip Shuffled cats and blankets, legs and sheets You went over, I rolled under To test the novelty of your half of the bed Sheets that smell of the first spring storm Cats turning circles to settle again This invitation to sink into your broad imprint Is all I need to rest