curled inside your arms
in the hard and unforgiving porcelain tub
dimmed lights
loud, shrieking voices past the locked bathroom door
I feel so safe with you

you look at me with your calm and bloodshot eyes
drooping eyelids and lazy smile
I lie against you and pretend to sleep
you say you're so amazing
my heart beat slows
my socks absorb a pool of lukewarm water
I am healing