I'm sorry I just kinda miss you.
It's been a long few months without you with me.
I wish I could have been over it as fast as you were.
I wish I didn't wake up hoping your arms are around me.
I want to be over it.
I want to be over all of it.
Every second we spent together
every time you touched me
I wish I could stop thinking about it.
I know "I love you" didn't mean much when it came out of your mouth.
It tumbled its way towards me, and I brushed it off.
Because I only say it to people, i do ******* love,
but you didnt care you hoped it would make me fall just hard enough so we could ****.
yet i took my time and said it went i meant it
well that was ******* stupid.
i knew from the moment we met youd be something to me
a close friend, someone to vent to on occasion
but never this.
i never thought i would spend countless hours thinking about you.
i never thought it would stop my ability to listen to my music
or even sleep at night.
i never thought anything of you.
and i guess that was my mistake.
well i hope you're happy now.
you got what you wanted
who was i to think that as a 17 year old id ever mean anything more to you.
how stupid was i to think that in your big busy world where you have yourself all figured out that i would mean anything more than a **** buddy.