A cog in my system has gone missing
Many times others have sought to replace it
It would always end the same
With me walking away into the sunset
the ashes of her life in my wake

My intentions were nothing but good
And for a moment I was soaring again
Usually this only lasts the length of a night
Or however long she can tolerate my *******
before the realization hits That the void cant be filled

It kills me to watch them weep as they walk through the door
I say nothing and let them hate me
To keep them where they cant shine would be a crueler fate
I sit at the back of my favorite bar and drink to their names

I Think back to how I cherished them for different reasons
A shy laugh
A secret
A pair of soft lips and the way shed kiss me

But in the end
Some didn't quite fit
Others matched perfectly but our speeds just wouldn't align
All deserve more than what I have to give