She said, I love you, sometimes
I hate when you cry
Never have I met a man
Who wanted so badly to die.
I told her, I don’t know what to do
My earth doesn’t rotate without you.
Never have I met a woman
Who I wanted so badly to dig into.
I know she doesn't like me.
I know marriage together is highly unlikely.
But when our stars fall onto the ground
I know with open arms
she's waiting to catch them all
and pop them right into her eyes.
Shimmering me with hope
I'm buzzed with lust
Not everything that falls resembles tears and cries.
I’m missing something,
She said.
A piece of you
The part that wants to be dead
I say,
My dream, it’s all in my head
This is all pretend.
I can’t imagine an even duller life
Without her.
I can’t imagine if she found a better lover.
Secretly wish she’d kill herself with me.
Together we’ll land
SPLAT
from the highest building in the city.
She won’t cry with me
She won’t die with me
She doesn’t love me
Although, sometimes I don’t love her.
Yet, I can’t imagine if she died.
I can’t imagine if I actually pulled the trigger
Together, while she backs out
at the count of three.
I’d say, the voices told me to do it
I want to be free.
After all, baby, I always promised you a land
That’s for only you and me.
The loneliness kicks in
I’m back to the start.
I’m still aching, in my poor little heart.
Remembering her embrace
And how I ruined her always.
Maybe I never deserved her in the first place.
I was more drawn to my sadness
That I couldn’t seem to manage
Her at her worst
And see she, too, is damaged.
I told her,
To me, love’s never been as simple
as four letters
I can’t even define it
Shit, not with my life.
Not even if you paid me a million and two cents.
Told her,
With you, things make more sense
A lot more than in my head.
You can simplify it for me, can’t you baby?
Simplify love for me in bed.
You see, she's never loved anyone before.
Not her mother nor her father.
When I asked her why, cold
she answered,
Why bother?
She said, I love you, to an extent.
Just as long as we pretend
I’ll always be with you
Until the very end.