She said, I love you, sometimes

I hate when you cry

Never have I met a man

Who wanted so badly to die.

I told her, I don’t know what to do

My earth doesn’t rotate without you. 

Never have I met a woman 

Who I wanted so badly to dig into.

I know she doesn't like me.
I know marriage together is highly unlikely.
But when our stars fall onto the ground
I know with open arms
she's waiting to catch them all
and pop them right into her eyes.
Shimmering me with hope
I'm buzzed with lust
Not everything that falls resembles tears and cries.

I’m missing something,

She said.

A piece of you

The part that wants to be dead


I say,

My dream, it’s all in my head

This is all pretend.

I can’t imagine an even duller life

Without her.

I can’t imagine if she found a better lover.
Secretly wish she’d **** herself with me.

Together we’ll land

SPLAT

from the highest building in the city.

She won’t cry with me

She won’t die with me

She doesn’t love me

Although, sometimes I don’t love her. 

Yet, I can’t imagine if she died.

I can’t imagine if I actually pulled the trigger

Together, while she backs out
at the count of three.

I’d say, the voices told me to do it

I want to be free. 

After all, baby, I always promised you a land

That’s for only you and me.

The loneliness kicks in
I’m back to the start.

I’m still aching, in my poor little heart. 

Remembering her embrace

And how I ruined her always.

Maybe I never deserved her in the first place.
I was more drawn to my sadness

That I couldn’t seem to manage

Her at her worst

And see she, too, is damaged.
I told her,

To me, love’s never been as simple 
as four letters

I can’t even define it
****, not with my life.

Not even if you paid me a million and two cents.


Told her, 

With you, things make more sense

A lot more than in my head.

You can simplify it for me, can’t you baby?

Simplify love for me in bed.

You see, she's never loved anyone before. 

Not her mother nor her father.

When I asked her why, cold

she answered,

Why bother?

She said, I love you, to an extent. 

Just as long as we pretend

I’ll always be with you

Until the very end.