I love you, but I won’t have you.
I can’t have you
Even if I wanted to.
And I do, yet I don’t…

Why is this so complicated
And so confusing?

You’ve met all the criteria on my list,
You’re that ideal guy.
And as other guys come along,
I see myself comparing them to you.

You’re my best friend

I sometimes wish we could be more,
But then I remember.
I value what we have right now too much,
To throw it all away for a few romance induced months.

I haven’t had those feelings for a long time,
Yet lately they perk up here and there.
Not when you do anything unlike you,
But that’s just it; You’re being you.

That’s what I admire about you

You say let’s just stay friends
It hurts, but I know you’re right,
Because deep down, I know it’s what I want too
But hearing you say it still hurts.

With you, I can see the long term

When I’m with you,
I feel safe
I feel comfortable
I feel like myself.

And if I wasn’t so scared of losing you,
I’d probably go for it.

Though I’ll never say it to your face,
I love you.
I have,
I will,
I can’t stop,
Even if I wanted to.
But the thing is,
I don’t want to stop.