my body craves your touch like i crave a bottle of scotch.
i know that your love is toxic, but my body yearns to possess you until i see fit.
i know such thoughts lead to oblivion, and i want to be healthy and whole.
on most days, i desire to be known fully as i am. i desire for genuine connection, and not mere obsession.
but somedays, the old crazy needy me comes out. behind that dark figure lies a lonely boy desiring to be loved, yearning to be held, and wanting to accepted as he is.
i embrace myself with all my heart, all of me, the crazy me, the sad little boy, and me just trying to grow and heal.
i desire to love and be loved. i am loved. i will someday be united with the Beloved. Till then, happy trails.