you are so much alike thunderstorms

i've always found comfort in the rain but ever since you came
your screams and cries has ripped my soul and i don't know how i can be able to love the raindrops like before
when now the drops comes out of your eyes and it's all my fault i'm so sorry it was not my intention to break your heart

but that's what i thought
until the thunder starts crackling
and it's deafining to my ears
until the winds are too strong
for my nimble knees
until you told me you cared about me but you told your friends how useless i am
until you started to hold me at my neck and i struggled to breathe
until you said you're sorry that i was being this way as if i was a glitch that was never wanted
until you made me feel guilty for my emotions i don't hold because you're the one who controls them for me                                        

you are so much alike thunderstorms*

i saw you first as lightning and i thought how beautiful it was to make the dark sky a little bit bright but then i heard the thunder and i was scared to my bones
i was scared because i don't understand how something so beautiful be so scary.

so there was only one conclusion and it was that you were never beautiful at all and things that kills you for being who you are don't deserve to be called beautiful and that things that put you in chains don't deserve the love you gave them