Somethings I wish I could forget. If I can't go back in time and stop it from happening I should atleast find a way...
To stop myself from remembering.
I never told anyone of this pain.

I was simply a kid who didn't know. I didn't know the rules of world. Or understand the monsters in it. Cause and effect were not something my mind fully grasped.

But I'm starting to understand all to well how one thing can spawn another. Incident to incident.  The events I didn't see and how they led to me. Taking shelter in the young empty slots of my mind. All the things I'd one day have to remember.

Now I wonder. Who else knows what it's like. To have an innocent know about it too. All it would take is confession and my fears and secrets could be on the ears of everyone.

That someone has the ability to shatter my world. My walls would crumble. Such a delicate web of events in my past... And unlucky for me I wasn't the spider. Just the fly the spider didn't notice was stuck too.

This probably won't make much sense. And I can't make it clear you see, because then I can't take it back. And I intend to have it burried in my grave. If I can stay sane enough to keep quiet.