I caught a glimpse
I tasted heaven once or twice
but that's all it took for me to get hooked on the idea
the idea that I could feel that sunrise again
somber colors in my bones I can't wash it away
can't wash away the ashes that stain my withering skin either
even while the summer heat strangles my body
in ways I couldn't explain to you
not the way my chest is caving in
not my shattering rib cage
or my constricting veins
I still can't find that sunrise again
waiting all night for it to come
but once again it's never the same one
once again I'm left waiting in the dull sun
once again waiting
    waiting
waiting
to catch one more glimpse
before I'm gone