a flood of tears
that taste a lot like fears
stress and overwhelming ambition
inhabiting the air like smoke

i feel a hunger deep within me
that no food can satisfy
a thirst
that not even water can satiate

i am filled with a longing
an abstract knowledge of what i am missing
the thing that only the wholeness of God can provide
the blanket of hope to comfort me
the pill of salvation to heal
arms that will hold through the toughest of years
hands that will caress every broken part of my being
a love that is stubborn and unrelenting
feet that will never stop chasing

i regret the times i missed the opportunity
to turn my head against my woes
and focus on Your absolute beauty
but here i stand
back in the wilderness
surrounded by Your creation
nature in all of its glory
basking in the naked sunlight that your smile provides
a crown shines like a halo on top of my head
from murky water to clear, diluted vision
focused on the mystery of the unkown
but inevitable truth that
You are the true help that I need
Even when I don't think I need it