She still smiles at the way he laid in her lap. Or at least the memory of it
She still cries when she thinks of him calling her a liar Because she always told him the truth
She still smiles when she thinks of the way he held her And how it was the only place she felt safe
She still cries remembering him leaving her for the 8th time or so Wonders if he knew how broken she was in the end
She still smiles when she thinks of their grand plans Such a beautiful future
She still cries when she imagines the child she could not share with him Her first love, whose child would've been beautiful
She still smiles at the thought of his name and wonders Does he ignore it when he hears my name called out Or does he grimace, am I memories to him anymore?
Are they good, bad or totally forgotten, am I just a shadow Of what once was, am I the memories?