I was not the only kid who grew up this way, taught to believe I was a complete waste because we'd never been taught to pause but just to continue on as though ricochets of words never pierced through the skin and that the flicker of flame within will always remain lit, we always pressed play. It didn't feel that way, the right way; I'd remember on a specific Friday, as the other kids raced to enjoy their time before the weekend arrives, I heard a kid I didn't know, ask "Why don't we play vehicles? It's simple". ... "What's vehicles?" I asked with a smile, lit by the internal flames of happiness, a smile lit by an expectation that fun was to be had. ... "Vehicles is simple. You're fat, so you be a truck or a semi-trailer truck. And you'd try to chase us cars." ... I didn't press pause, I'd continue to play with a broken smile lit on my face as though the pummelling words had no impact ... I was not the only kid who grew up this way, taught to believe I was a complete waste because we'd never been taught to pause... and I wished I had pressed pause... before a spiral of artillery hit my artery became a stained conscience on what is really okay to believe in.
Do I believe in the models on screen or do I believe in the heroes the world hasn't seen. It's become obstinately obscene... And I wished in this cataclysm of movies in this cataclysm of choices I have made in this cataclysm of regretful mistakes I wished I pressed pause and simply said
"I may have a big waist, But I am not a complete waste because the best things in the world aren't an illusion created by the eyes."
Let's play vehicles.
We'll all be cars and run thoughts of division over, because we were all made to be loved.
because we are all beautiful
**No more playing, It's no longer fun and games, let's bring a change by pressing pause and simply saying... "I am not a waste".