graveyard at night in the middle of winter. coldness, rain, snow. hovering graves, alone. senseless grieving. voices to the earth, harsh icy breeze. need to exist, please don't be gone. dust, dirt, ash. hot tears, pooling quietness. distant, detached, far away. cloudy 1:00 a.m. looking for constellations, can't find a star. lonely and bitter. broken teeth and unsent letters. itchy skin, ****** fingernails. waking up with swollen eyes, stained lips. shivering gently. numb, dull, empty. flickering ghost of where you used to be. no control, no control.