there's no future, no past nothing but a feeling spreading through it's a weight without words and the silence is crushing you wishes of ways to say what you mean memories of places that you'd rather be walls created only to be torn down built for the people you want to keep around a book that's impossible to read no vaccine for the disease a familiar voice running through your head "this is meant to hurt you" is the only thing it ever says questions to an answer that you'll never know if you really believe in heaven the why are you so afraid to go?