they creep up in a silent violence
that when they strike
I am defenseless

they rush over me wave
after wave until I am
waiting for a moment
of peace so I can
finally breathe

they ignite demons in me
that I have for so long
tried to keep in a hidden
chamber of my heart

they give me a euphoric high
that makes it feel as if
I had just been given
the breath of life
and now I dance with stars

they are violent ghosts
they are a vast and threatening ocean
they are a pleasure that one only finds
deep within their souls

they are everything - and they are also nothing
ghosts and flesh and blood and bones

they are whispers
and they are screams

but they are a part of me