At a time when I’d never seen What chaos love creates in the mind, I wrote a Valentine’s poem. Chocolate and flowers won’t do, I announced. I want a man of substance. As if I was full of substance, me: This silly little girl pining over boys Instead of doing her homework. Substance, to me, was only words That came straight from the heart. Those pretty ripples on the surface of the water Embodied the essence of everything. What gems lay on the floor of the sea, Raw, sunken and hardly visible, Did not matter in the least. Today I swim about with flailing arms Like a lost snorkeler in the deep Caribbean Reaching out for the slightest glimmer I see. Diamonds and pearls, please come to me! I’ll treasure you till eternity. But alas, it is dust sparkling in the sun And nothing more. I find I must Let go of my dream of spotting gleaming Jewels floating above the ocean floor. This silly little girl is now pining over dreams Instead of living a dry reality. Perhaps a man of substance has no need In this world full of deceptive discoveries. Perhaps chocolate and flowers can Shroud my thoughts in their sweetness, Just to keep me happy. And perhaps movies are made cheesy To reflect our shallow truth, Wrapped in cellophane and ribbons, Straight from the nearest Archies Gallery.