You tell me to look up
But you're never there
I want to trust you
I want to believe what you say
But it always seems to be a lie
No matter how many times I tell myself
"tomorrows a new day"
My heart still breaks when I look to see you not there
My hands still outstretched
Waiting for you to be there
Like a lost child  
I look for you to be there
Not realizing
That you don't care if I crash and fall
You wont  be there
As long as you are lifted up
It doesn't matter to you what happens to me
What my outcome may be
No matter the amount of tears that have streamed down my cheeks
You have never been there to wipe them away
You have never been there to hold me and tell me things will be alright
How can you call yourself my mother
When I have spent my life raising myself.