And it's 2am. I'm lying on my bed staring blankly at the ceiling. While half of the world is fast asleep, and the only thing i hear by now is the rain patting on the roof. My mind empty as the walls, my heart cold as the weather. That's when i realized that i was numb. Numb from the pain you've caused weeks ago when you decided that i wasn't good enough for you. You left and it felt as if my world stopped spinning, the clock stopped ticking and i stopped breathing. I was drowning from the pain as i was trying to grasp for air. We were in the ocean and when we reached the middle, you left and i didn't know how to swim. I guess i was the anchor dragging you to the bottom so you decided to let go. You were my ship, adrift, you finally saw the port leaving me alone in the ocean. You knew you were safe. It's 3am and i kept asking myself "Was i holding you down?" The thoughts in my head began to consume me. And my lungs was starting to be filled again with water. Suddenly, i couldn't breathe. I tried to grasp for air again for a second but then i asked myself "where am i going?" And the answer started to ripple like a raindrop in the water. The answer was a resounding nowhere. So i stopped trying and let myself drown waiting for a rescue that wasn't ever gonna come.