You never gave me any closure You left before I could even say goodbye All my tears were wasted on the thought of you, The thought that I wasn’t good enough.
Atelophobia, they call it; the fear of imperfection Or thinking you aren’t good enough. Making it harder for you to have relationships. You made me feel like I wasn’t good enough for you.
I thought it was my fault you left But in reality you left, because You weren’t willing to put in the effort to stay. Leaving the burden to fall onto me.
I wanted you to stay I wanted you to love me But you had other plans in mind Leaving was easier for you.
I fell in your trap Believing that you loved me But it was all a lie Making me think it was all my fault…
You said you didn’t want to hurt me, But you still continued to walk out the door It took me months to finally see, That you were not the one meant for me.
The sharp, bitter taste of alcohol burns my throat, But it numbs the pain for a short while. It helps me forget But you’re the one thing that stays on my mind.
They call it liquid courage Because it give you an excuse To do and say all the things you couldn’t while sober
I constantly think of texting you, What I would say, what I would do. I thought about what I would reply if you were to text me first But it never happened, so I lay here with a constant thirst.
I needed a reason to justify sending you the texts That I am sure I will regret in the morning But it still doesn’t stop me now So I take another drink.
As I sit here hazed And waiting for a reply, that I’m not sure will come I think “why wasn’t I good enough” “What more could I have done?”