the older i get the more things there are to miss and it becomes harder every year, i wonder how to balance, i wonder how to find peace, i wonder how to be okay with things that are gone but you never wanted to leave, i wonder when i'm about to experience change, because change scares me unless it brings me to art, but my art hurts me when i see it lately and i'm not sure what to do but continue this ongoing sentence until i find a good stopping point...........................................................i­ think i found it