i was cold
like everything else
before i even froze,
i thought of moving
i began running in circles
looking for something that'll thaw me
i saw the vast deep ocean,
i began testing waters.

i swam and swam
until regain my body heat
not warm enough - but neither cold
finally the cold got off.
i felt kind of happy.
instead of swimming back to the shore,
i explored the sea.
swam deeper,
my heart and body felt like it belongs to the waters
i began loving it, at least i think.

didn't realize i was already lost,
i barely recognize where i am.
didn't know the ocean changes too?
the thing i loved now turned into a monster.
it began swallowing me,
whole and alive.
i cant do anything,
i dont know why
i just watched myself get eaten by this beast,
i trusted him.

because he made my heart beats into symphonies
he said my voice is the type he'll not grow tired of.
i kind of believe him.
i kind of fell in love with someone's words
i kind of liked this man with a name i'll never know.

but he swallowed me.

and when i went back into my senses,
i'm back on square one,
but now,
my whole body,
frozen.