To be me

To be me is a choice
My life matters
You have to listen,
But you never hear me
I am a villain
In a poorly drawn cartoon
All-powerful, god like
And a total fool
*** is mine
Love I never know
Money is my brother
And I value nothing
My brightest creation
Died, never seen
Always the enemy
Never the ally
I miss my friend

Who am I?
My life matters
But death surrounds me
My gift to you
Broken, in mud
To be me is to rule the world
Alone, un-mourned, and asleep

Who am I?