To see you smiling makes me sick
To see you happy makes me wish
I hope it ends for you
I hope it comes down in seas of tears
I hope you know pain and sadness
I hope you’re crushed by your years
I hope no one loves you
I hope you know loneliness
I hope one day you see yourself
See you how I see you
A worn out harlot
A **** who aged
A woman who changed me
Who made me rage
Who made me feel
Who brought me joy
Who left me sad
Who called me “boy”
Who drove me mad
I will never stop feeling you
But I know I am far from your mind
We were so unequal, so far apart
I was blind,  lost in my heart
It hurts me now to know you never loved me
And to know you never will