These past three weeks Have been quite unnerving I've found love and I've lost one of the most important people in my life... Losing her was terribly sad... I've tried to push away those feelings of sadness and heartache By focusing on love and the endearing look he has in his eyes I have not allowed myself to succumb to dwelling in my sadness And the urgency in my heart to cry our her name to the heavens Where are you? Are you looking down on me? I miss our Sunday visits, Ouma I miss your sweet rosy scent I am conflicted by the emotions I feel I am resisting the screaming and sobbing in my heart I am deafening her With a pillow to her mouth I am allowing her to fall asleep And when the sobbing, screaming child in my heart awakes... I love her I remind her that 'Jesus wept' And it will be alright And she should allow the Love of Jesus to flood her heart 1 Corinthians 13 Love should swell up inside of her heart And she should love Allow that love to surmount all that melancholy inside of herself She will love She will love Momentarily I am lost And I was found by The Lover of my Soul Jesus Christ, dwell in me Love me Bless me Be with me And help me to spread Your Word And lift Your Name on High Jesus... Dwell in Me And Love...