felt real
for I went near the mentor
I have always loved dearly
for we were allowed to ask any questions;
the line intensified and then it was my turn,
the clock was a ticking bomb to my heart attack--
I was panicking, thinking of a question to ask
then suddenly these words poured out,
"Ma'am, is it okay if I fall in love again?"
My mentor just looked at me,
and shrugged her shoulders with
a sigh of irritation.

Maybe it was a sign
that I was still
not
ready,
     to fall in love
     again.