the new season came without you
this year,
felt like the sun was in my eyes the whole
time
and bugs crawling through my skin eating me alive
last winter was only warm because you wrapped me in your
clothes when my skin would raise goosebumps
i loved you in all of these seasons, two springs
two summers
one winter and one fall.

"let the dead bury the dead"
how?
how do you just bury a whole year
of loving someone when they were only
aware of you loving them for 1/3 of it?
how do you just throw out all the memories
just like that?
the only thing im burying is my head under
the sea of blankets to hide the shame i
carry every day knowing i let the love
of my life slip through my hands.