Is there no regret without prior desire that can only be described as a wish to have been someone else? To wonder why is to wonder about why you were born to begin with. The decisions you made were made with a desire that may or may not have been misguided but either way it was a force and without it you could not have decided otherwise. Regret becomes a lament when the measured depth of the tears drowns the honesty that has now become who you are. People become cruel in their rejection of their own past; it becomes a rejection of everyone they encountered; everyone they loved; everything they did. They were unable to see what they know now. They lie in bed and cry because they can feel the moment. They see themselves making the same decision, over and over again. It never changes. They wonder how they could have done that but what they cannot remember is how they felt then. They only know how they feel now.

But what about now? Is today’s desire as misguided as yesterdays? Can you trust what it compels you to do? You made your mistakes. Is it time for another? How can you know? In what way can you be who you are? Your weakness is larger than your life. You can be someone else but only as long as you can hold your breath. Maybe what you want to be is not meant for you. Do you have a destiny that you must accept? Everyone suffers. You are not alone is this regard. There are very few people who can describe what they are thinking; who can draw what they see; who can play what they hear in their mind. Regret is the child of fate. Your fate was determined by the power in your life. Your nature is powerful as is the nature of those you chose to believe. The nature you married to your own has a child: Lament…

I tell you this so that you know one day you may look back and wonder why you didn't do things differently. The key to finding your genius is to find the true genius of enthusiasm. And once you do then you will become powerful in controlling your fate. Your fate is governed by your own nature to the extent that you can control events impacting your life. But until you find the genius of your true enthusiasm then you will be living a life that you may one day regret.