I understand that you are a lone wolf and I understand that you live in a ****** home, and I understand all of you because I am your best friend Ive known you since I am five but that doesn't give you license to treat me like a moth that flits around your computer screen when you're up late at night

I see all of the good in you and I see how capable you are even when you don't seem to believe it I support you in all of the dreams you have and the things you want to do and you don't care enough to look, you don't care enough to support me, to see me it seems like Im on the see through side of a one way mirror

I speak to you I ask you questions I make an effort to talk you you because thats what best friends do they take interest in each others lives they talk to each other and make sure that they know you're always there for them when they want to talk but right now its just the messages that keep getting delivered and theres no one on the other end

I love so many pieces of you and you say you love me back but theres a knot in my chest that just keeps tugging on me and saying that you're lying because you keep acting like I'm nothing to you like I am just a character in a book that you pretend you enjoyed for your english teacher

I do keep trying to fix this because I care so much and we used to be so good and I thought we were so great I do want to fight for this friendship but only if you want to because its really hard to bail out a sinking boat that I don't know is going down

I feel so hurt I feel horrible because everything is going down around me and the only person I want to talk to is you but I cant because you always make me feel worse always I don't know why I try to talk to you anymore because it makes me hurt its like Im telling someone to punch me in the gut when Im already bruised

I am so sad and angry at you and I just want you to ******* respond so we can either talk it out or quit now Because this is torture and you just keep hanging me out to dry and I just keep trying but if theres no use then please please tell me now so that I don't waste my time and keep growing attached because I am stretching myself so thin and I just cant take another heartbreak Please If you even care one bit about me you will just tell me where we stand now so I can know if we are worth saving

I understand, I see, I speak, I love, I do, I feel, I am not nearly as indifferent as you seem to be