I haven't been writing lately
and I was curious as to why
turns out I haven't been feeling
a single thing

Numb as numb can be
and I can't decide if I prefer
this nothingness
or if I'd rather still be sad.

and I can't figure out
if I'm happy to be alive
or if I'd rather close my eyes
and  never wake up

You can ask me when I'm dead.