when i saw you the first time
you took my breath away
eyes that shone full of life and hope and warmth
and you smiled and said hi
and i
crumbled
because your smile made my heart race and calmed me at the same time
and
i smiled back and then i knew that i could never have you
i knew you would never want me back and I tried to stop falling
but
i tripped over the smooth and velvety sound of your laughter and
fell
head first into 'like'
and I knew that you were too popular too smart and too good looking
but
we had to much in common and i had hope because you talked to me too and sometimes i'd catch you staring at me and we'd make eye contact and smile and i'd be breathless again and i hoped and i hoped and i hoped and then we talked and you said
that you wanted to date a nice girl from your religion
and
i fell apart
i knew we'd never be together but
i'd never thought it would be because of a man made construct such as religion and
my heart shattered into a million pieces
because there is nothing i can do to get you back
the bright-eyed boy who radiated hope rendered me hopeless
and i still loved it