i do not love you for your strength and grit, for your set jaw, for the hard cartography of your knuckled fist. i do not love you for your sharp corners. i rub your tensed wrist like a pliant mouth, i wait for spread fingers and vulnerable palm: a hollow nest to dream in. i want the hurt you soother like an ulcer in your mouth, your night terror, your ra-eyed vulnerability: these unarmored parts which are mine alone. darling, you are not at war. slow down, breathe deep, drop your guard. no one is chasing you but me.