Have you ever tried to force a cry out?
Its like feeling a flash of lightening come about?
You feel it. And you know its there but it wont come out?

It's prowling in the shadows.
It hides behind..away from the light.
It dwells..deep inside putting up a fight.
Its there.
It hides and it consumes.
You feel it everywhere.

The pain.
Oh. The never stopping. Always going.
Pain.
For this it feels as if you didn't train.
And with a deep cry you will gain.

Peace.
Acceptance.
Perhaps a smile for instance?

A true smile.
Not the kind that's put on for a crowd.
But one you will wear so very proud.

I want to cry but i can't. Shall I just pitch a rant?

Or possibly I've used them all.
And chose no longer to fall.
I guess I put my feels away.
Now in the bed awake I lay.



-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016