you picked at the scars.
you opened the wounds.
to all the pain,
that i have been through.
you see what you want to see.
but you don't see the real me.
you don't see the demons dying inside of me.
im hiding my pain
but there's no one to blame.
refusing all help,
pretending all is well.
but inside i'm screaming
my heart is bleeding.
my body is a shell.
my soul is in hell.
but i'll keep biting my tongue
until my time is done.
i always wnted to be the opne you wanted.
always wanted to be the one you needed.
but it seems as though
i've lost control
of everything that i have put on hold.
there's many times i've cried in the dark.
because my world was falling apart.
many restless nights,
times in sleep that i would fight.
you say to stop crying
but there's no point in trying.
with every smile that i fake.
it's another stab that i take.
i laugh
but nothing is funny.
like a river
my tears are flowing.
im saying that im getting better
but it's all a lie.
with all the advice i feel closer to dying.
i feel so insecure.
lost without a train of thought.
lost inside my own mind.
in these ropes of depression im bind.
i dont want you to be scared.
i already am.
possession takes over me.
with no escape.
all hope is going down the drain.
i cut
and i bleed
with no expression.
its not the depression.
it's me.
im gone.
im fading away.
where am i going?
i cannot say.
but inside this shell,
im fading away.
im running.
im running
with no control
of where im going.
save me.
save me!
save me from myself!
i want you to save me
but i dont want your help.
this shell won't hold tight for long.
it won't be too long before
im gone.
one day im gonna hit the right vein.
and there will be no one to save.
ill be gone
in a heartbeat.
listen to my heart but it wont beat.
im dead.
im dead!
did you hear me?
of course you didn't.
the sound of my cries are completely forbidden.
im crying. im crying loud!
but you dont hear a sound.
im not afraid of dying.
im afraid of living.
what ami?
who am i?
where am i?
im not Paris.
i'm an alias.
Jane Doe. who am i?
the world will never know.
slicing my wrist.
river of blood swish.
tick. tock.
tick.
the world is crashing.
the walls are closing.
something's taking over me.
i can't fight it.
but im not trying.
save me....
SAVE ME!
LET. ME. DIE.!