Sometimes I auction myself to myself
Sometimes I enslave myself
Then late at night
Instead of sleeping
I desperately break out of captivity
I teach myself how to read in write in secrecy
With a vengeance
Sometime I am the overseer
Brutal
I lash myself until my back is open and ******
I catch myself stepping out of place
We give each other space
Black and white and me
I have become very strong
This ebb and flow
This internal struggle
Ever since white people needed to **** black women
In this struggle that is relentless and eternal
Sometimes I settle for being
Simply a human
That is when I grow the most