I must have thought of A thousand phrases and colorful words in my head I mourned the lack of your support Quietly but only in singular moments Lamented it sparingly But I had to voice it out loud To verify that you are so little, so small.
You blocked me today I don't really know what I ever did Something about who I was before you And after you There is a presence and wisdom within me Within me in the earth That was consumed with a absent minded naivete Because my eyes were just less open.
If I spread myself more thin And circled all the parts of me in red With just how it hurt Every time your disappointing, I can't even use the word shadow Because you are less than a shadow I must haunt you so deeply Will you cover up the ink of me?
But the truth of it Why it hurts and stings Is because it makes me feel just utter shame Like I'm not even worth killin' In you meaning, in your name So lets continue to hate me Erase me I never knew someone who once loved me so much Could turn to hatred so quickly But wait
What am I saying? Yes I do. He errs and swears I'm sure his face grows red and hot I hope he will leave my old apartment with his lover soon I saw they bought a car together What a step for mankind You led me away from his cruelty Only to shut all my windows and prefer me in the darkness Because then you don't have to own That you dug the grave we bore our love in.
I just wanted to hear a "good job" You did You're great Congrats Silence Nothing but silence And then a technological barrier to remind me That though my heart has always been open Because I couldn't be the one The girl that took your drunk calls And listened to you coo in a boyhood manner What we would name our children Or pitter patter in the mildew of temporary happiness Never ending battles of the same drinking games Going out and discussing only the past, each other The rainbow in my hair withered into a flame Because I needed out so badly Until you left me And we changed and evolved Like Sailor Moon does, When she uses her powers.
Do you know how many men drop words and phrases Filled with meaning but they want so much I look around at the contenders Your name scratched out in a ***** red I really gave it my all You'll know You'll see.
I told you my name would be everywhere. So block me baby Theres no dance move That will save you Though you dare with new women and ***** Erase last summer, hate her Can't bare to see photos of her thrive Or quietly say a million times Just why you went
I woke up each morning And your face would be covered in new white heads I lower my sword My dagger My shield Because theres no fight left in me Only in you.