A surging of a pile of wired and tangled like strips of DNA Pushing and pulling, whipping and snapping Rushing towards one another like silent mice Or ravenous blood lusting lions Held up like trinkets on a tray-- The feelings that I feel but can never tangibly see Tangled and rising up inside of me.
I didn't cry last night I'm at a point now where my eyes will well with tears Face will contort But nothing And I mean, nothing Trickles or releases itself out of me.
A dry well in the Sahara desert But all that water rises with the tides But I can't seem to find peace with It makes me wonder when will I cry again? Please don't let it hurt.
Little brothers such a good man Best friends mother told me he's the kinda man I gotta find She's so right. I don't know why it is That I have been so drawn to the confusing darkness Of ego, deceit, abandonment But I walk around the city No goggles on I get back in touch with the little girl Who fantasized But was so entranced with paint brushes, canvases Barbie videos And never needed Waited Existed and lived a sweet but filled with lessons to learn Just content With what felt good, joyous, and right She's still so deeply within me And I miss her.