My life is not what it should have been. I am not where I thought I would be. The things I longed for have not been mine and often seem out of my reach. I have tried to follow a program, but often I deviate from the plan. What others think is for me, I often find too constricting. I have lived for the moment and planned for tomorrow. In both counts, things don't always work out. I have tried to live on a path, but I sometimes just sit down and wait. Not knowing why I am doing what I am or where I should go next. Now at a crossroads, I must again pick a direction. Again another confusing decision on a time line that I just can't seem to stay with.