How dare I?
How dare I live this morbid life for even just a dull second?
How do I rectify my actions?
How can I justify what I have done...

"Living living living"
"Moving moving moving"

But never actually living

I was breathing
Breathing in nothingness
A polluted wasteful breath I had
Because it was a life that was encompassed with doubt
A life that was spent without You in its presence

Oh what have I done?

This is My plea to You

I have slipped away from you
I have allowed myself to drown under their words
And I thought I was breathing
But I was mistaken by the air that had escaped from me

However now
I rise
With gasping breaths
And panting
With Your life in me
my Prince living in my soul

It was if an oracle had come upon me
And I was struck with ideologies and truths
That I could have never imagined would speak truth

I have succumbed to This life
Without You
Without Your Life living in me
I have become so distracted that I have forgotten my deep love for You
Your power that surges through me
That brings an electric current that will not resist its flow

Oh God
My Beloved Prince
You
Who wore the cross and held
my burden on your shoulders
You wore the crown
Made of the rose's one fault
For me
For my disgusting and filthy heart


You fought

For me?


I am merely a weak simple being
And you love every part of me...

I have lived a dull life
A morbid life
And I say how dare I
How dare I...
Live without you.