finally, im myself again. it seems that only happens when im alone
im starting to wonder whether i find ****** people or im ******* crazy
maybe its a mixture they dont treat me right and i dont accept it
or maybe it really is me im a life ******* monster and they, my helpless prey
or maybe, its them too shallow to comprehend too self-centered to care
because im so powerful and dreadful, i have the tendency to just devour people. but at the same time, people i allow into my life are usually more powerful and dreadful than i. so what does it all mean? is there blame to be placed, or is it all just a **** mess? maybe, im better off not playing the blame game.