Jun 2016
you claim i put the demon inside you
but how could i accomplish
such a horrific feat
when I couldn't even string
a simple sentence together.
I cried in your arms for help
praised your beauty, intelligence, determination
gave all of it to you, Ryan
lost myself trying to fix you
I made myself less to fit you
sat there while you told me
i was less than I am
because arguing was impossible
I forgave you for things
i never should have
i apologized for things
i never should have
****, you're right
I loved you so much,
I let you become
a monster
but how could i accomplish
such a horrific feat
when I couldn't even string
a simple sentence together.
I cried in your arms for help
praised your beauty, intelligence, determination
gave all of it to you, Ryan
lost myself trying to fix you
I made myself less to fit you
sat there while you told me
i was less than I am
because arguing was impossible
I forgave you for things
i never should have
i apologized for things
i never should have
****, you're right
I loved you so much,
I let you become
a monster
your insecurities are just that. just because you try to push them on someone else, and it doesn't get rid of them, doesn't mean its their fault. by making myself less, and doing so many things to accommodate him, I created a monster. One who could get me to do or say anything he wanted with the right amount of anger. I loved him so much, I lost him.
