Not sure whats been goin' on with my soul Dreams surrounding your face, the lack of your presence I wake up in reality, so early The sun eggs me on to get started Motivation slightly slipping off the edge Clawing the side of the earth Nailing my fingertips into the dirt A troop of people spot me from behind And in front And for the first time I allow them to help lift me up.
Saw pictures from the funeral You wore your favorite suit A man came into my coffee shop yesterday And I thought This is what he will look and be like someday Perhaps.
I don't really know what it is that I need Inking and reading into every little thing My sensitivity extra high If I could fly a kite I'd tie myself to it And sail away.
Tonights the big night Corsets and improvised movements We plan to intoxicate ourselves with happiness Its gonna do me some serious good.
Theres so much build up So much hype Around it all And sometimes I just wanna curl into a ball Let the circus proceed without me.
But I can't yet leave.
I don't know that there is any leaving for me anymore I've always gotten away with it The last **** on my dresser came off into my hand today And I thought My whole room breaks and crumbles around me Year 1 whispering: Sweet little Layne, its time to upgrade.
Time for a run I won't forget But I'll release every threatening word behind The voiced insecurities of others I allow them to spiral down into the earth Like dust thats where they lay And with uplifting fists