I'm learning
What a terrible thing
Life is

How lonely
And pointless
It all seems

Another day
Alone at the library

I read about the past
And about past lives
Of others

I guess
I'm not attractive
Or rich enough

To have female friends

I'm quite sure
Our economy
Will collapse In the next 5 years

The fitness club promises
To help you
On your journey

Toward
Your "best self"

I've learned
Not to be too trusting

I shouldn't love
People too much either
Because they all leave
And die eventually

And so I remind myself
That they could die any day

Just to remind myself
Not to invest emotionally in them

Starbucks insists
On playing their
Garbage pop music
In the morning

No hugs
From any loving
Female friend

I think I am
More of a deist now

Tired of unanswered prayers
Of lonely months
And years

God helps those
Who help themselves
Blah Blah Blah

I don't have any money
To go out
And meet women
Or however that works

My body imbalance came from
Pleasuring myself
With my left hand

So now I have been doing
the same motion
With my right
To restore the balance

But I have made an effort
To stop pleasuring myself

I was meant to be a ******
Haha I think for life

****** chats
******
Chaturbate cams
All fun I guess

Just wanted a female friend

Oh well
SHouldn't expect much

Everyone is out
For their own selves

Miserable ****** world
Beautiful terrible
Empty world
I love nature

I have to listen to people
Say, "How are you"
A million times a day

Can't people think
Of an original response
They just repeat the same answer

My therapist
Who I enjoyed talking to
Left

Oh well