this hurts so much and
i don't know why...

maybe it is because
you are leaving in august

or maybe it is because
she doesn't trust me

or maybe it is because
she said my parents are bad parents

or maybe it is because
she said i could've ruined your career

or maybe it is because
now i won't get to see you

or maybe it is because
i am too emotional

or maybe it is because
i do truly love you
and i do truly care about you

or maybe it is because
deep deep down i stupidly believed
some of the stuff she said

or maybe and this is the one
i really think it is
maybe it is because when you
called me back to make sure
i was okay that
i could hear that you had
been crying and that you
were trying hard not to
and that i could hear the pain and anger
and sadness in your voice
from what she had said

people say that what someone
says to you is just words and
what gives those words
power is you but i
don't think that is true
because if it was then i
wouldn't be feeling like this
and neither would you