This *** on the stove top
I think might look a lot like me
Boiling, full of steam and bubbles
But exploding over the top
***** water collecting underneath
I listen to Ariana Grande's Dangerous Woman
And its got me thinkin' about the roastin' chicken
So peppered and covered in herbs.

Saw you got tatted up again
I woulda done the same
Snap chat cues me in
Can't forget you
And I don't even try to
I tried. I tried.
My God, I tried.
Met with so much hatred
From someone I exposed my life, my world
My bleeding aching heart
And you saw, you were the one to lead me away
From my gruesome past
And you turned around to be the worst of all.

But I watch that ***
Boiling and steaming
My other room mate turns all the lights off whenever I turn them on
I've got a birthday party I could go to tonight
I took a nap for several hours
But I was so burnt out
Needed to escape.

Its that glorious time
Of rebirth
We stop and check in on our refrains
I admitted to my best friend
That I'm not showin' it
But I feel so ******* lost.

Reminds me of the time
This past October
You were so impatient with me
And my darkness
I understand
You couldn't just sit and watch
But I tried, I tried
I wanted so much
I guess you did too
But we were so
So

Been feeling thrown away
Like I'm one with the garbage disposal
Sitting right next to paper bags and ***** old rags
I blend in like it all makes sense
Trash from a flurry of hands gets thrown on top of us
And we take it, we feel it fall so softly
Flying in the air with a whirl and twirl
And we nod back and forth
I never like anyone any more
I don't even look.

I put my make up on in the mirror
You didn't know I was gonna be at your house
Cuz I play it so ******* cool
Asking myself all day today
What can I do to bring myself happiness?
So I turned off my phone, took my top off
Took care of last minute business
And slept so deeply, so hard
Haunted by a variety of images and voices
You appear and disappear
Showing love and desire
I tell you I don't know either
And I lament and ache with

Why is it never me thats chosen?