I'm tired.
I'm tired of the tears
Bursting through my eyelids
Uncontrollably
When a stupid song comes on.
Provoking emotion.
I don't want to feel, self.
Don't you understand that by now?
It's too much.
I tried feeling once.
After a terrible loss.
And then I ******* died.
I was a phoenix that day.
And the reignighted fire
Burns deep
To keep
To keep ******* pushing through.
Just to breathe
Is sometimes enough
To smile.