the alarm clock refuses to set itself it tells me this at 4:05 in the morning
II
I’ve started combing my hair trying to maintain some sense of maturity after I shaved my beard I was reminded of my boyish look
III
the mirror decides to show the reverse of a reflection it shows me everything I’m not
IV
I have a dream where you’re the star and I’m the narrator we exist in the same world but never interact
V
I look at my college degree like it’s an old photograph from a time period I never lived in I’m still seeking employment
VI
I turn 25 and unwrap gifts looking for plans and hopes and whether or not they’re relevant
VII
sometimes I wonder what you’re doing who you’re with and how much happiness you have
VIII
I disappoint myself rejecting expectation and ignoring opportunity shaped in the consistency of social resonance populated by unpredicatable girls who may charm you away or ***** the scabs you’re dreading to discover
IX
abandoned ditches come with welcome signs and I can’t help but feel a little afraid that my vision is cut in half
X
two halves of a poem form together feel the uneven edges out and agree on acceptance
XI
hands unfold and position themselves for placement for some tangible thing to appear